I didn't mean to worry people with my last blog about the genetic testing. I really am not worried about it, and I'm pretty confident (and so is the doctor) that everything will be fine. The purpose of this blog is 1/2 to inform people and 1/2 to allow me a venue to vent. I think that particular post was me "getting it out there" so I could relax about it.
In the meantime, Mr Logan is a superstar. His weight it up to 6lbs 13.5 oz. He's gaining so much, so fast that this morning the doctors took him off the preemie formula and put him on regular formula, which has fewer calories per oz. Good thing too, because he's already got 3 chins. He's only had 1 apnea spell in the last 4 days.
They will be starting another fax study tomorrow. The doctor is pretty confident that he will pass this time. I was told that even if he doesn't fully "pass" that as long as he doesn't fail it miserably he will be coming home on Thursday. How well he does will determine if he comes home with a monitor or without a monitor. Either way - just to have him here is exciting. We are ready for him, the nursery is ready for him, we have everything we need here - except a baby.
On a personal level, I'm a little down today. Whenever you do anything major in life - people are going to offer their opinions. This is a fact that anybody looking into schools, getting married, moving, or having a baby, know very well. There are always going to be people offering up their experiences and advice. I appreciate everybody's advice and experience. I have an issue when I feel like people are judging me for following my own path. I hate the phrase "what you should do is..." Ultimately, what I should do is what I feel is best for me and my family. I love people sharing their own experiences with me, but it really frustrates me when people think they know what is best for me. Especially since everybody has a different opinion.
As much as I love the NICU nurses, they are the worst for the "right" way to do things. I have been taught to burp him 4 different ways, 7 different ways to hold him while I feed him, and 3 different "best" ways to change his diaper. I will be feeding him the way the night nurse told me, and the day nurse will say "oh no, do it this way - it's better". I am so grateful to everything I have learned from them (and it's alot), but it can get frustrating sometimes.
Everything you are doing for that little babe is the exact right thing to do... Because he is yours, and all he needs is you. Love to you. Keep on trucking. :)
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